Sunday, January 15, 2006

Back.

I'm back here. Haven't been blogging for the past month cos I didn't like to not use my laptop and couldn't get internet on it. Time passed too fast. Despite me trying to maximise each day, I haven't had anything near enough. When I wasn't sleeping, I was off finding something to do. Obviously mainly meeting Billy.

He was so sweet trying to stay up late and spend as much time as possible with me. He was my mental and financial support. Haha. But although I feel selfish for taking up so much of his time and money( I was cashless thanks to christmas and the high cost living in HK), I felt that I would go nuts if I had even lesser time with him. Distance is tough, but being near but out of reach is worse. Luckily my boy was such a sweetie and had done so much for me. Love you.

As for most of the other time, my good friends were with me. You girls should know who you are lah, haha I love you girls too.

Lastly, for those who I was unable to say bye to, I'm really sorry. I really felt very sore to have to leave, and Billy sent me off, I didn't want to pry my arms off him. It was heart wrenching for me. After that, I had to board almost immediately. Only had time to call my mum.

I came over with all the stuff my precious boy got for me, things that were close to my heart and I had always missed about him. The scent of his perfume, the texture of his jersey, his voice, his face as he sleeps. The phone he got for me, a miniature of his perfume, his old basketball jersey, things that I brought back with me, it all just makes me crave to be near him again.

Then to take my mind off missing him, I look at the keepsakes from my friends, the christmas presents, the photos, and I can feel the charisma when I was back, but I just want to go back real soon. Nothing really makes this easy.

Five months odd to go.

gwen blogged at 10:22 PM