Monday, January 30, 2006

love me.

Most boring new year ever. Not one visitor, and no one to visit. The only boost is that allllll the junk food we bought would be mine. Alllllll MINE. Mwahaha. So then, brace yourself for the new me in the future. I would suppose there would me more of me to love.(or hate)

gwen blogged at 2:58 AM

Friday, January 27, 2006

happy new year.

I feel so pathetic. I had never wanted my entire family together so much before. When I mean entire family, I mean like inclusive of the extended. The thirty over people at least. This is my first big festive season away from home, and it feels like shit. I feel like shit. I have no idea how this horrible three days of jealousy will get by.

Billy's been feeling unwell, and I have this theory that it's contagious through phone. Cos in these two days, he'll have a sore throat one night and by morning, I would have it. Then he has gotten the flu then come morning, and I experience extreme flu-like symptoms as well. Oh well. maybe I'm just mad or a hypochondriac.

I've only been here for two weeks. Dammit. I had a classmate who went on a holiday today. I wish I had a plane to catch.

gwen blogged at 11:14 PM

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Awake despite being tired at a lousy 1.57 am. Definitely one of the lowest points of being here. Experiencing a pretty serious case of heartburn, and the thing that's eating me up is NOT the gastric juices making its way up my esophagus, but the fact that I can't get anyone to talk to. The only human sound going through my ears are the distant snoring of my dad. I take my hat off him. I feel more than just physically alone.

gwen blogged at 1:56 AM

Saturday, January 21, 2006

1 down....... approximately 16 more weekends to go....

My first weekend here. Haven't been blogging the past few days still. Very lethargic everyday. It seemed like after a taste of being home, coming back here to stay was much more draining to me. I still miss so many people. I'm gonna try to scrimp so i can make more calls to not just Billy but also my friends. I think I will go paranoid and cranky again if I only contact him. How would he have as much free time as me. So. All my good friends keep your phones on, and I will approach you soon on msn to check out your schedules.

gwen blogged at 4:17 PM

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Here are some happy pictures. Why? Cause I can mock at myself and the place I'm in.

gwen blogged at 10:45 PM

Back.

I'm back here. Haven't been blogging for the past month cos I didn't like to not use my laptop and couldn't get internet on it. Time passed too fast. Despite me trying to maximise each day, I haven't had anything near enough. When I wasn't sleeping, I was off finding something to do. Obviously mainly meeting Billy.

He was so sweet trying to stay up late and spend as much time as possible with me. He was my mental and financial support. Haha. But although I feel selfish for taking up so much of his time and money( I was cashless thanks to christmas and the high cost living in HK), I felt that I would go nuts if I had even lesser time with him. Distance is tough, but being near but out of reach is worse. Luckily my boy was such a sweetie and had done so much for me. Love you.

As for most of the other time, my good friends were with me. You girls should know who you are lah, haha I love you girls too.

Lastly, for those who I was unable to say bye to, I'm really sorry. I really felt very sore to have to leave, and Billy sent me off, I didn't want to pry my arms off him. It was heart wrenching for me. After that, I had to board almost immediately. Only had time to call my mum.

I came over with all the stuff my precious boy got for me, things that were close to my heart and I had always missed about him. The scent of his perfume, the texture of his jersey, his voice, his face as he sleeps. The phone he got for me, a miniature of his perfume, his old basketball jersey, things that I brought back with me, it all just makes me crave to be near him again.

Then to take my mind off missing him, I look at the keepsakes from my friends, the christmas presents, the photos, and I can feel the charisma when I was back, but I just want to go back real soon. Nothing really makes this easy.

Five months odd to go.

gwen blogged at 10:22 PM