Friday, November 05, 2004

feeling old.

i see myself now, and fifteen years ago, i'm like the same, just fatter and taller. strange that i wanted to grow up so fast just to find that there's nothing to it. it the same repetitive processes of entering a new strange environment just to have to leave it after some years, just to go into another new one. i have this love hate relationship with somewhere new. the buzz of stepping in just to find that it's not that bad, and you could actually grow to like it, then just to find that later, you're all alone. but nothing makes it all better than new friends and acquaintances. love being around people. all kinds. they add on to that big library of memories i hold so dearly. people who seem so strange and far turn out to be the ones who stretch out a hand when others just cringe. i don't know if the next person i see on the streets or a mere acquaintance maight just be the one saving my ass tomorrow.

gwen blogged at 3:20 PM