Wednesday, December 01, 2004

awful inside.

i never thought it would be like this. a few days after Del left for Singapore, i just feel crappy. i hate to be alone in a foreign land with no aim. first time in my life im just wandering on the same bloody dtreet for like the thousandth time, all alone. i walked into haagen daz, had a double scoop, which is normally like the best prozac ever, but i still feel awful. casper was kidding that what if the flu that's hitting the kids here start to have an effect on adults, and i feel, it's ok. i dont care. but the only thing is that i would have to spend more time here alone. i hate it. i hate that you dont understand. you cant even give me five minutes willingly, of pure conversation, instead of the squabbles and endless explanations reasons, or excuses. i'm still alone.

gwen blogged at 1:50 PM